Don't tell anyone, but I'm a little sad that summer break is over. School starts in just 3 hours and 40 minutes and I'm not sure if I'm ready for that. Well, I know I'm not ready. I lost the paperwork that tells what bus number the kids are supposed to take home as well as the one that I'm supposed to sign saying they should ride the bus home. It was in the same spot for 5 days and now it's gone.
We had a fun summer. The boys had a blast playing with friends in the neighborhood. They rebuilt a go-cart and had Pokemon tournaments and became better swimmers and tried to catch frogs at the pond and organized neighborhood soccer games, and jumped on the neighbor's trampoline and played on the other neighbor's inflatable water slide, and roasted marshmallows in the backyard. Not to mention Disneyland, SeaWorld, seven national parks, a zip line, three cousins, two grandparents, a new friend, and DVD players for the car.
Plus, the best weather of summer is happening right now. We've got hot days with warm nights and it just doesn't seem right to have to go to bed early because it's a school night.
I've enjoyed watching my boys become more independent and creative. I've loved seeing the joy on their faces as plan and organize and carry-out their fun ideas. I've loved waking up "whenever" and pointing to a box of frozen corn dogs when it's time for lunch and telling them to "help themselves."
The house is a disaster, the laundry pile seems never-ending (I suspect the boys are throwing clean clothes in there rather than refolding them or shoving them back in their drawers. But I don't care), we can barely walk into the garage anymore for all the bikes, balls, scooters and skateboards that are strewn around, and the only food in the fridge is milk, cheese, eggs and some left over beef barley soup.
But I don't care. I've surrendered to summer and it feels great.
I feel like I'm betraying my other mom friends who have joined me in years past doing back flips on the lawn when the school bus drives away that first day. I'm sorry, but I'm just not that happy today.
I'm a little happy. Just not back flip happy.